Truth, I’ve been in a situation where I was in deep thought before pushing the publish button. Writing everything that is on my mind that comes with heavy burden of thoughts. Am I going to offend someone or will somebody just troll me because that’s what trolls do? I stare at publish button for seconds and skimming over what I write and don’t even check for typos or grammatical errors.

I take a pause for a second then push publish and wait to see if anyone will read. I’m getting more into Medium now and pretty much write for the fun of it. A way to let off some steam, knowing nobody will read my stuff no matter how much I share it on social media. That’s fine with me, sort of.

LOL, I wish a lot of people would read, share and comment on my poems or my blogs. I’ve been doing this medium thing for nearly four years, since 2016. A year after my son was murdered. I needed an avenue to release what was and still at times what bothers me, and or what is going on in my life.

Sharing my voice still seems muted at times, because I don’t have that writers appeal I guess. Even though I’m lowkey famous, but not really famous lol. I wish, yeah I’ve been in some movies and some TV shows. I’m on most of the social media platforms.

I still say I’m doing something wrong at times because friends tell me, Dino, you’ve done this and that in entertainment and you’re not validated on your social media, you don’t get no love or subscribers on your youtube, (which my youtube is all over the place with content), my IMDB score flucuates often because of Prison Break, When the Bell Rings, and Same Kind of Different as Me. I noticed when I post something about what I’m doing via film or entertainment - I get a lot of love on facebook. Any other random post or thoughts just sit there idle. I’m like hmmmm. Then if I do post something about our film company and it don’t pan out, it makes me look bad or I feel nobody will care if and when our company does take off.

I enjoy reading other people material and strongly be inspired by their work and sometime low key envy their fan views or likes, or claps or whatever that validates the content provided. I even paid for services to get followers and people to look at my content, and that turned out to be a scam. I lost out on a whole fresh c-note. I was mad, yes but it was a learning experience.

See I’m writing a long comment inspired by your writing. And I’m looking at publish as if should I push it. I pause and now proof reading my work. Now that I finished proof reading, I hope you enjoyed this extra long answer to your post. Thank you very much.

Dino